Hi, my name is Sue. It all began with a miscarriage in April 2005.I was very emotional afterwards and nobody understood how I felt and I had nobody to talk to. My family and husband thought that everything was fine and I never shared how I felt.I immediately fell pregnant in May 2005 but I never celebrated the pregnancy. My first child was born in Jan 2006 and I love her to bits. I used to cry alot when no-one was around during my maternity leave. I lost interest in myself and dreaded each day.I used to think of ways to kill myself.I used to be short tempered and frustrated towards my husband. Then just as I was getting back onto my feet, and returned to work from maternity leave, I found out that I was pregnant again!! I felt as if my entire world had ended. I begged my husband for us to end the pregnancy but he would not hear of it. I cried throughout my second pregnancy and I hated being pregnant.In May 2007 my second beatiful baby was born and I cannot imagine my life without her, even though she was not planned and I initially did not want her. I love both my children and live for them but I deeply resent my husband for not understanding, not talking to me about how I felt and generally, for not being supportive. We fight all the time, I deliberately say hurtful things to him. I want him to feel some of the hurt and isolation i felt. I cry at the drop of a hat and constantly moody.There is a complete breakdown of our marriage and we are now even thinking about getting divorced. What is wrong with me??