My daughter is now 9 months old and I love her to absolute pieces. I can't imagine my life without her but things in my life are just not going well.
I am very tearful, depressed, irritable and moody. I don't get on with my fiance at all anymore, he irritates me endlessly. He hasn't really changed since our baby came along but I just get so upset with him for any stupid reason.
I do most of the things for my daughter which is tiring as my fiance doesn't really help out. I get up with her every night and give her bottles or medicine or whatever is needed. I am finding that I get very upset with her when she doesn't do something that I want her to do i.e like if she doesn't want to sleep that I actually feel like smacking her (which I have done once or twice on the nappy). I also find myself shouting and swearing at her in the middle of the night if she wakes up and won't go back to sleep.
I am turning into such a terrible mother and person. I just don't understand why I get so upset with my daughter. I love her so much so why do I treat her like I do.
I am so worried that my fiance is going to try and take her away from me (he has threatened to do so) becoz I just feel out of control and I do things and later think to myself - what the hell was I thinking???
Please give me some advice on what to do???