My baby is allmost 14 months old, still not sleeping, 20 minutes at most during the day,and wakes up 3 to 4 times at night. I have to get up 5 times a week and my husband twice a week. I love my baby but I think depression is sinking in. I have lost 12kg and a lot of inches, my husband does not seem to appreciate my thinner body and the hard work that went into it.
He showed a video of me and the baby at the beach on our recent holiday with my bikini on to a male colleague who said to my husband that he was not looking at the baby but at me, he thinks I look very good after the baby, he said he thinks I am beautiful and that my husband should look after me.
I loved the compliments (which I never receive from my husband) and suddenly find myself thinking of being with another man. I do not know if I want to be married anymore and I find myself wondering if it was a good idea having the baby? I love my son but life is now so difficult, not being able to do things without having to ask someone to look after the baby.
I feel lost