Hi there
I'm so sorry that you are feeling so desperate, but please know that this is not your fault and that you did nothing to cause you to feel the way you do.
Won't you make contact with us on our helpline 082 882 0072 or at our office 021 7974498 (mornings only) so we can put you in contact with someone near you, who can help you. You can get help for how you are feeling and you definately don't need to go through this on your own.
Look forward to hearing from you.
Alnere
(PNDSA)