what is wrong with me?

I just had a second baby.she is 3 months old.she is so cute but some how i just cant connect with her.i hear her cry and it is as if i just block it out.sometimes i pretend she is not there.even when i was pregnant with her i pretended it was all a dream.i was 8 weeks pregnant and started bleeding and thought i had a miscarriage.i was releaved and went to the doctor so that he could confirm it but after a few tests he announced that i am still pregnant.i just burst into tears and the doctor thought it was tears of joy.i went to the clinic twice to make an appointment to have an abortion but never went through with it.till now i dont know why i didnt do it.so what now?

hi angel! how are you helping yourself? have you gone for help? tried medication & found someone to talk to? big hugs!

Hi there

Please won't you get in touch with us by either emailing info@pndsa.org.za or sms "help" to 082 882 0072 and we will call you back. I think it would be good for you to meet with someone who can help you deal with the feelings you are experiencing. We will be able to put you in contact with someone in your area who specialises in dealing with women who suffer from PND.

We look forward to hearing from you.

Alnere
PNDSA